I am naked. I am vulnerable. I am hurt. I cover it up. I am hurt again. I cover it up again. And another. And again. To cover all the hurt. I am not naked anymore. I am covered. I am hidden. But I am still vulnerable. I am unseen. I am suffocating. Now I … Continue reading I am naked →

Write until it stops hurting. Stop bleeding. Start breathing. Breathe in. Breathe out. Let it go. Let go of privilege. Of security. Of stability. Of comfort. Of routine. Of structure. Embrace the difficult. The uncomfortable. Stay with that feeling, experience discomfort until it becomes comfort. Create anarchy within. Make chaos a friend. Let it out. … Continue reading Do or do. There is no don’t. →

Why is it so hard to say no? If I don't like it, why can't I say so? Having to do things I despise, Or cannot do what I long Why am I the only one to apologize? No matter who's on the wrong Oh is it a surprise? No it's not! I know that … Continue reading Confrontation →

I forbid you to do this. I forbid you to do that. I forbid you to walk. I forbid you to talk. I forbid you to grow. I forbid you to stop. I forbid you leave. I forbid you stay. I forbid you to know. I forbid you to move. I forbid you to slow. … Continue reading I forbid you →

When out to get some essentials this morning, I noticed more than usual number of people out and about since covid-19 lockdown began.  Being the odd anxious one, both by nature and clinically diagnosed, this sense of normalcy within people made me anxious and worried.  It reminded me of the same feeling when as a … Continue reading Bubble as a respite – Guest →

A million questions flooded my mind as I prepared for the 4- week lockdown. I am the kind of person who is hardly at home. Now, for the next four weeks all I would do is stay at home. My biggest worry was how will I cope? How will I get through this? After a … Continue reading Time for myself – Guest →

I rushed out of my interview to pick up my work belongings as 4-week lockdown was being announced. I am pleased to say I have obeyed the rules to keep everyone safe and have only visited the vet for my dog in the last 18 days. These days my mind seems to be in a … Continue reading In my bubble forever – Guest →

As end of year approaches, everyone gets crazier than their norm. People get tired, some very tired and others completely burnt out. It is understandable. It is like when you need to pee, and you hold it in like a champ...until the toilet is in sight. Then the weight of your bladder becomes hard to … Continue reading Significance of insignificance →

I don't have much time left. Now that another human is completely reliant on me for all their needs, time has become even more valuable. I don't have much time left. I have never denied my existence nor my death. And as I enter my 30s, the arrival of death lingers in my thoughts. I … Continue reading Time and Energy →

A week ago, darkness descended upon our house courtesy of a scheduled power outage. I wasn't worried; we were well-prepared for the day. It would be back by 4pm, they said. So we busied ourselves by reading, playing Ludo, and making tea on our camping stove. It didn't worry us that our phone batteries were … Continue reading And there was light →