the first thing I notice about him are his eyes beckoning, challenging to approach him I look away attending to the other guests I have seen him before that smile inviting I walk away 'have something to eat', I offer to everyone but him was he at the hospital when I almost died, I wonder … Continue reading unwanted guest →

you sit alone utter darkness surrounds they come out one by one sneering sleering you watch as they file past you around you now surrounding your gaze is unwavering disinterest they keep filing in bringing more darkness fear a memory maybe the memory thinking you'd budge wanting you to show vulnerability maybe another day panic … Continue reading the void →

a new ache fresh set of tears a restless heart a facade of strength this never gets easier an old insecurity abandonment a past trauma a dig at your soul this never heals another sleepless night heavy head sore eyes not again resigned fate get over it you'll be fine this isn't the end not … Continue reading Goodbye →

you have a lightness in your steps you smile at everthing making insignificant significant you are open to it all raw in a good way peeling off layer by layer you are ready to finally meet yourself finally after a long time coming home to who you are were your eyes shine with anticipation freedom … Continue reading Tonight →

The hour is late on a Saturday night your chest is heavy, tightening why does it feel like you're drowning? time is pleading 'let me heal you' but but stop need to breathe, these four walls feel like prison constricting restricting driving to your safe place you are almost there breathe try again and now … Continue reading Solitude →

you are at a crossroads life being comical deliberate forcing you to choose between what you stand for what you cannot stand what you want what you cannot have morals reinforcing what you believe in what you breathe in life is passing regrets piling up easy isn't always right but right isn't always fun you … Continue reading once again →

sit next to each other sharing pleasanteries complaining about the humdrum of daily life contemplating about our existence delving into the chaos of our minds most often i can pretend that your world is the same as my world but nowadays i cant i wont i am less patient i snap at you the grass … Continue reading you and i →

are too loud bold visible questioning things you shouldn't knowing exactly what you want fighting for what's right even when they hate you for it too confrontational they say because you can't stand misunderstandings miscommunications because life is too short and time the space you occupy is too precious to think about things that should … Continue reading You →

after waking up I am aware of nothing but tiny hands brushing away my hair making space for a snuggle a smile a wet kiss the sweetest word I hear 'mama' and on repeat what bliss the million emails can wait the doubled and trebled up meetings can wait the never ending to-do list can … Continue reading two minutes →

Do you ever get tired of all the faces you see sometimes the same ones again and again sometimes the only one or maybe you feel lonely when they suddenly disappear now unsure of your existence do you then sigh with relief when that spell breaks like early in the morning so you feel whole … Continue reading Mirror, mirror on the wall →